Visiting America

Wow so I am actually visiting America. It seams so weird. I mean last year I was visiting Thailand and now it’s all flipped the other way around. It’s actually pretty cool. Since being back I’ve learned all sorts of new things. I think I a finially beginning to relize how important my family is to me. I am also seeing that no matter where I go I am being takin care of. It’s kind of cool to see Gods provision in my life. At first I did have what they call reverse culture shock. But I seam to like it. If you take it the right way you can learn and see all kinds of things. It just gets hard not to judge everything. For a while I forgot I was an American. I guess being back here has reminded me of that. Sometimes I scare myself while looking in the mirror. “Oh man I’m white.” Sometimes it’s a real shocker. Being here I see how I have changed. I see what used to interest me doesn’t anymore. Going to the beach watching the waves was fun but I didn’t even think about going surfing. I just took a bunch of pictures like a tourist to bring back to my girlfriend. It’s seams weird to be a tourist in your own home area. Going to church was good and having people pray for me who knew me was comforting. It’s ben a real good trip but I am ready to go back to Thailand. A lot of it is my girl friend but a lot of it is it just feals like home their. Being back here staying at my old house in Ocean Beach seeing an Im Jai House picture still hanging on the fridge took me by surprise. “It’s still hanging,” I thought. Remembering that the last time I looked at it I was dreaming of what my move to Thailand would be like not knowing a single face in the picture. As I looked I now knew every little face looking back at me. It hit me hard and can’t wait to be back where God wants me.